In the thick
of this moment
unclear
and disheartening
i don't know
where I am

as this chair
does not remove
me from these things
i am wanting
freedom from
the noise of my mind
from the voices
that taunt and accuse

i am needing to
see Your face
to be embraced by
Your love
and there is no
withholding
from You

and the wait of
blessings
rest
on
me believing
that You are
already
loving me...

how eyes see

how the eyes
pierce to find....
and i cannot
discern the
truth of
their search....
as i wonder
in each gaze
each turning
away
each ponder
of me
not knowing
the thoughts
they possess
i only am
compelled to
know
which eyes
love me

I am loved

the breath of courage slowly exhales

and the path is laid

beaten and rough

i think my soul finally doesn't know

all that You can see

i am from dust and because

You know my frame

i surrender; white flags are rising up

And i remember to know that

I am loved

in the rest of thinking
where i like to sit
on the mountain of
my mind
i look out on the paths
of my life
some obscure
and unfinished
some flowing with pain
and i don't know or rather
i never knew
when i began...
the ending of each
i only knew the way
of going
the step and breath
with eyes attentive to
the turns
and the pavement
and in all the trails
of this journey
i perhaps fell
a few times
and sat on the
side for awhile
trying to measure
the distance
trying to figure
out the way
and i learned
that i just needed to
go, to keep walking
without really
understanding why
i needed to learn
as i went
the direction forward
stepping into
i will always
go